Ok so you know how I just said I wasn’t going to cry over Asshole again? Yeah well then i was talking to Nick he started being all deep about it and shit MAKE IT STOP
I just sat in my car in my pjs and snow boots and cried on the phone to my mom about how I’m going to fail my finals and lose all of my scholarships and how I’m going to be alone forever and I just want to go home and be done with this shitty semester.
But at the same time I had the best cigarette that I’ve ever smoked (even though Kathryn is the worst packer ever and it fell apart) and it was such a strangly comforting confliction of feelings.
Now I’m actually motivated to do well again for the first time in a long time, and something tells me that tonight was the last night that I’m going to cry over a guy who doesn’t give two shits about anyone but himself anymore. I don’t even know why I wasted almost three years of my life with him.
It’s time for me to start over.